In the English language, there exists many words to describe frustration. Dissapointment, annoyance, bummer, chagrin, disgruntlement,resentment, unfulfillment and (my favorite) vexation. Not one of these describes how I feel when I think of the fact that for fifty four days and nights, our oceans have been being raped by BP’s negligence.

Anger does not describe this feeling. Nor does acrimony, pique, outrage or fury.

Hatred. Bitter, cold hatred is what I feel. I despise them. I despise what they are doing and what they are not doing. I despise them so much, in fact, I have moved my account from JP Morgan Chase (who owns 30% of the public stock of BP). I have refrained from buying gas at any station affiliated with BP (thus costing a whopping $0.32 more per gallon by not filling up at AMPM).

After 54 days, BP has done practically nothing to stop the spewing of oil into our Gulf waters. They have, however, spent $50 million on a PR campaign to make me think they give a damn. Do you know what would make me think BP gave a damn? Let’s see, shall we?

If, perhaps, they had not accounted for a whopping 97% of “flagrant” safety violations over the last three years. Holy shit! 97%? That is 862 violations compared to Sunco (number 2!) with 127. Oh yea, Tony, I am sure this wasn’t your spill.

If, perhaps, Tony Hayward had not said “I’d like my life back” when discussing why he wished the oil spill crisis would end. Would you, Tony? Because I bet the dolphins, whales, fish, birds, turtles and (lest we forget) workers would like their lives back as well. But, see, they are innocent in all of this – you are not.

Or if Hayward had not asked “what the hell did we do to deserve this?” Okay, perhaps he did not know of their 862 safety violations. Let’s be sure to remind him.

Or if BP was not blocking media access. What are you hiding, folks? A massive diaster, the likes of which the world has never seen?

It will take years, if not decades, to simply clean up the mess that BP has made. Perhaps it will never be better. There are species down there that are barely back from near extinction. We may well lose them forever.

This, yes THIS, is why I was against deep water drilling. This, exactly here. The technology does not exist to do it safely. I hate BP for lobbying our government to allow this bullshit. I hate our government for allowing this bullshit and I hate the fact that in a year people will no longer be talking about BP and how they decimated our coastline.

But for now, I can still say it: Fuck you, Tony Hayward. Fuck you, BP. Fuck you, JP Morgan Chase. Everyone else might, but I wont forget what you have done, what you have allowed. What you have destroyed.